On the right track

I haven't decided yet what this blog is going to be about. Or, yes I actually might have - mainly things that I find beautiful, inspiring and want to share with the rest of this world. Be it: interior design, DIY's, beautiful projects and of course, the reason I first created this little corner for; my personal style.

Funny things is, when I started my blog, I really wanted it to be fashion all the way, for the most part (even though I now cringe at my first posts, but hey, we all have to start somewhere haha). Now, I think my perception of it has changed quite a lot. I don't think I am ever going to refer to my blog as a fashion blog, because, well, first of all, it isn't. And second of all, I have realized that fashion is something I DO respect and admire, but if I compare myself to other fashionable people, I am just not that into it. It might sound illogical or stupid and quite possibly it is just a phase in my life, where other things bring out far more interest in me. But I am in a complete love/hate relationship with it. A term I sometimes thought it was a complete bullshit and I could never get its actual meaning. But now I do, it describes me perfectly. 

And what do I mean by that? I am obsessed with clothes, I shop whenever I can and for as long as I can, what the hell, I could do an all day marathon every few days if I had the money. I always check out other people's style, can't help but do that. I act like a stupid infant when I see something I like, while imagining how would I style it. BUT - I am no longer that interested in fashion magazines, I can't remember the last time I bought one, I follow the trends, however, weird and unusual street style is what feeds me, I rarely watch fashion shows, editorials never make me as enthusiastic as they should and compared to other people who shine like diamonds when talking about all of this, I just feel like an asshole. And a phony.

I am just not that into it, honestly. But, I am okay with it, because I feel so liberated by admitting this. I just don't care that much, I don't strive to achieve perfection with what I wear and I don't pretend to be some great fashionista. I just want to wear whatever makes me feel good, keeping in mind that I might look like a fucking disaster from time to time. Because hey, that's what I am sometimes. And I'm just a human. 

So, with all further respect to other fashion obsessed people out there, because, really, do not get me wrong, I'm not trying to put anyone down here and I actually admire you for being able to love the fashion world as much as I can't, but that is my truth. And it might be someone else's as well. I respect all of us, because we all bring something to it and make it what it is and the reason I had to write this was to clear this up with myself, but also to explain to my audience what can they expect from me at all.

So, as I mentioned, personal style still is one of the primary reasons why I want to post on here, so, I'll leave you with a little dose of it from two weeks ago, that I really didn't have the chance to post before, but I hope you enjoy it anyway. 

If you had read this, thank you. And please, if I do spark some interest in you, don't hesitate to follow my blog. Of course, if I don't, that's completely fine as well. :D

I am wearing: H&M burgundy beanie & chain necklace, DIY cut out tank, H&M men tracksuit shorts, DIY boots.

OOTD: New journey

Oh boy, has it been a while for me in this big old world of blogging. Just now I have realized, it is almost three years now (just 5 days away, actually) since I first started my blog in 2010. A lot has changed in this strange span of time. I am, obviously, a bit older, my fashion sense has evolved and changed and still is changing on a daily basis. It now got to the point, where the word eclectic can be highly applicable. But as of my personality: I could almost say "same old, same old"...if you have read me before, I am practically the same old chick, except with a hint of life changes that have hit me through this time and affected my way of thinking and changed my track a bit. No biggie, though. It is a thing I bet I'm going to repeat at least once a year, for the rest of my life and it's a beautiful thought, really. How we all change constantly, while keeping the real, important parts of ourselves in place and as long as everything is for the better, I'm down with it. And it was for the better with me, believe me. It will only get better from here on. I'm grateful.

However, one thing has not changed in the slightest and I could bet my life on it, it never will. My creativity had may been resting, but it never died, in fact, it is only burning brigther now and has finally reached the point of its release. My mind is overrun with new ideas and things and words and ways and only now have I learned, that I don't need to overthink everything, I could rather use it and let it all out into this world to inspire. And this is the perfect opportunity for me to start, yet again. This blog is a part of me, it always has been, even in the worst of its times. When I went through my old posts I felt things I haven't felt in a really long time and I got very happy and very excited. I felt beauty. And right now I just know what to do. I will continue this little project of mine and make it my masterpiece, and by this I do not necessarily mean something posh or fame worthy, but I shall give this blog a chance to shine.

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La Sardina #1

Some of the photos that are the result of my very first use of Lomo La Sardina. I've learned a big deal of how and when to shoot, which effects are best to be used and so on. Some pictures turned out completely ridiculous, haha, but in the end, I'm glad they did, because I really got to know my camera and its abilites a little bit more. Again, I love how every defect makes the photo even more special and in a way, I love every single one of them, even if right now they're very amateur and totally beginner like...

I'm thinking about getting a black and white roll next and if anything awesome comes out of it, I'll be more than glad to post it on my blog!

P.S. Please note, that the pictures are just a little bit different in real life, scanner makes the photos look a bit more saturated and a little less clean.

R.I.P. Amy Winehouse

I couldn't believe my eyes, when my cousin wrote to me two hours ago and told me that Amy Winehouse passed away today. I was just listening to her cover of Will You Still Love Me Tomorrow. The news made me feel like I was in 60's or 70's for an instance. I just couldn't believe it.

This makes me really sad, she was one of my favourite singers and I am still in shock. So young and so talented, but yes, unfortunately her addiction was stronger than that. What a waste, god damn it. All the good ones go because of drugs. :(

Rest in peace Amy, you will be missed. <3

Iz srca.

Evo me...nazaj sem z morja. In sem se odločla napisat eno objavo v slovenščini. Enkrat se bom nehala spraševat kaj je OK, kaj ni, a bi mogla tko al drugače. Jebeš. Danes me ne briga.

Torej...zdej, ko me ni blo en teden in sem bla na morju nekje na samem, brez elektrike, telefonov, še tapravega tuša ni blo...skratka - nič, pa useeno zadosti, da preživiš...sem se po zelo ZELO dolgem času sklopila...dobesedno. In končno malo zadihala. To se mi že zelo dolgo ni zgodilo in moram rečt, da ne vem a se tako počutim samo v tem momentu, ampak vem, da se in sem vesela, da je tako. Kot da bi zagnala cel sistem spet od začetka. Morje kot morje je blo enkratno, meli smo se super in sem prav vesela, da sem šla, ampak ne samo za žur, tut zato, ker sem se v tem kratkem tednu, na tem nepomembnem kraju za moment spet našla. Pa sploh ni, da je bilo moje počutje non stop na vrhuncu, je kar dosti nihalo. Ampak tako kot se počutim zdaj, to je neopisljivo.

V teh dneh sem malo premišljala določene stvari in v sebi doživljala razno; bila sem jezna, vesela, razpizdena, sitna, žalostna, prestrašena in nakoncu presrečna...in vse to samo zato, ker sem se enkrat po 100 letih odločila, da bom spustila iz glave vse te bedne misli, ki mi grejo vsak dan na tisoče krat po glavi in začela malo bolj lahkotno gledat na stvari...in mi je to nakoncu tudi uspelo. Mogoče, ker tam ni računalnika, telefona, pa družine in obveznosti in imaš časa res na pretek....in ne, ne sovražim zdaj vsega tega naštetega, ampak...zaveš se kako zamujaš samega sebe, ker se preveč obremenjuješ z manj pomembnim. Bedna sem se si zdela. S čim se ponavadi ukvarjam...saj morda se jutri zbudim in bo spet vse isto. Ampak, če bi bila še naprej taka kot sem v tem momentu, bi bilo moje življenje v prihodnje dosti lažje. In lepše. Trenutno vem kaj mi je pomembno in kaj hočem...kaj hočem zdaj, jutri, mogoče celo čez pet let, ne rabim seznamčkov, opomnikov. Boli me kurac. Kot da mi je to kdaj pomagalo. Tako lepo se že dolgo nisem počutila, v sebi čutim zanemarljivo količino strahu, nimam potrebe po sarkazmu, po depresiji. Ta nepomemben moment je daleč najlepši moment v zadnjih par letih. Čutim se kakšna sem v resnici.

In kaj bom zdaj? Ne vem. Bom vidla. Mogoče si res še premislim. Trenutno vem, da kar se starih navad tiče...rada bi še naprej pisala ta blog. Preden sem šla na morje sem ga hotela zbrisat in celo naredit novega. In sem ga ubistvu tudi naredila. Trenutno nisem imela namena komu povedat za to. Ampak v resnici sploh nisem bla prepričana, če naj ga usposobim ali ne. In zdaj, ko sem prišla domov in pogledala na to bedno stran in prebrala teh par komentarjev...sem si v momentu premislila. Mogoče sem res človek, ki ga par pozitivnih, s to temo popolnoma nepovezanih mnenj, z lahkoto spreobrne, ampak ko sem temu prištela še nekaj prisrčnih sporočilc tako imenovanih "tihih spremljevalcev" - se mi je zazdelo, da ga je škoda. Saj mu ubistvu čisto nič ne fali, samo jaz sem se malo prenajedla vsega. Od objavljanja, pa do tistega občutka po potrebi po komentiranju, da bodo ljudje vedeli, da mi je njihov blog všeč. Čisto rada imam vse bloge, ki jih spremljam, ampak, včasih se ti pač ne da komentirat. Priznam, presrečna sem kadar tudi sama dobim lepe komentarčke pod objavo, ampak ni mi všeč, da počasi vse skupaj zgleda že skoraj "komentar za komentar". Jaz nočem odvračat ljudi, jaz hočem, da bi jim bil moj blog všeč. Brezpogojno. Sicer pa...malo bom spremenila layout, ker sem se ga naveličala. Ko sem naredila ta blog, sem si prisegla, da moj pa ne bo minimalistično bel s ČB headerjem, ker so taki vsi. Kurac. Zdaj mi je pa všeč. Bela stran s tisto staro računalniško Courier pisavo. Mika me. Ne vem še glede headerja, ampak saj smo umetniki v familji, bom že kaj spackala skupaj, kar mi bo všeč. Mogoče si vzamem tudi malo pavze, samo da bom potem začela z večjim veseljem. Kar se pa objav tiče...po starem. Vse ostalo je lahko ena velika kopija, ampak tega dela pa ni moč spremenit, tu človek pusti pečat in tu izgine vsaka podobnost. Vse kar napišem je napisano iz srca in bo tako tudi ostalo. 

Evo...cela reč. Ne, moj blog ni moje življenje, je pa en zanimiv del in kdaj rada malo dramatiziram. Pa še ponosna sem, da sem končno prvič objavila enega od teh mojih romanov, ki jih večkrat spišem in potem vedno zbrišem. 

P.S. Nikomur ni treba komentirat, se pa iskreno zahvaljujem vsakemu, ki je to prebral do zadnje pike.

You'll never forget your first.

Guess what? I decided to do that blog award post. Finally! :D After, what, two months? Oh boy, oh boy. Sorry, it's just that when I have to write about stuff like "write ten random facts about yourself", I will always think about it for years, before actually writing it down.

So, I got it from lovely Nuša, who unfortunately doesn't run her blog anymore at the moment. Anyway, thank you so much! :) This is my first blog award ever. The rules are:

- write 10 facts about yourself,

- pass the award to another 10 bloggers.

Note: I didn't really like the award design, it didn't fit my blog, so I did this one for me, that you can see below. But here is the original one, if you prefer that one. :)

10 random facts about me:

1. I prefer salty over sweet and if I'm not having my period, then I'll always pick a bowl of spaghetti alla puttanesca over a piece of cake.

2. I have OCD. I count subtitles, I count if things are odd or even, I check every glass or fork before using it, when I hang my laundry I put the same color of clips on each piece, I sometimes think that if I wore a certain bra and had luck, then I must wear it again. I have a lot of obsessive thoughts. I actually realized that I have OCD only a year ago.

3. I swear quite a lot, but I couldn't possibly imagine myself not doing it. It's just a part of my character. Yes, I still have manners.

4. I really want to live in another country. Somewhere by the sea. Fuck Paris.

5. It's really difficult for me to fall in love and I sometimes almost feel like a man. Until I do fall in love. Then I become such a different version of myself, it's just funny. I do love love.

6. My favourite couple ever are Morticia and Gomez Addams. Yes, they are fictional, but hell yeah, if I had a love like theirs I would be happy for the rest of my life. Idols.

7. I sometimes feel like I have 10 different women trapped inside me. In general I am not the worrying kind, I'm spontaneous, happy, relaxed and at the same time I do what I have to do, but then here we have the OCD person, the obsessive one, the one that doesn't give a fuck, the worrying one...it gets so crazy sometimes. I blame it on my Venus in Gemini.

8. I am very ambitious, but I rather keep it to myself. People are way too negative and envious and the moment you say the word "ambition", you're suddenly a bad person, only craving money and success.

9. I sometimes worry of how I come across to people, I don't know why. I always want to prove to people, that I'm not a bad person and that I don't judge and I think sometimes it comes out wrong. At the same time I don't want to act common, just so people would like me. In the end it's better to change the audience, if they don't like you for who you are.

10. What more can I say. I'm hard to explain and there's so much more to me. But through experience I think I'm one of those people where you only have two options: love it or leave it.

10 people I nominate:

Anita from Life. Style.Fun.

Saša from Duckalicious

Eva Ana from All Around Eve

Mancina from Mancina's Styling Spot

Joanne from ♥Music, Fashion,Clutter ♥

Laura from That's So Yesterday

Alja from Ljubeznice 

Špela from Fashion Junkie

Ana from Fashion Fly

Ela from F-BLOG

The nominees' names are randomly put and it wasn't my intention to hurt anyone by not putting them on the list, there are so many blogs that I love and I'll nominate them next time. :)

Cause baby, I was born this day!

Aaaaaaaaaah, the day has come! I AM OFFICIALLY 20!!! :D It's my birthdaaay!!!

A new decade before me, that I hope will be better than the past one, more joyful, loving & richer with everything possible!! :)) 

Though, I must admit that I don't know if I've realized it already. The number 1 is completely gone now. Forever! :D In a way it's a bit scary to think that now it's the time when you are old enough to start making something out of your life, building your future and start being more responsible, but it's really exciting at the same time. :D It was always said to be the best years. Crazy & productive. So, I am loving it! :P

I feel 20. B)

Otherwise, I would like to say thank you! Again! :) To all who follow my blog, who enjoy it. This is really an incredible experience, I've never thought I will meet so many nice, cool & friendly people through this, people that I could actually really be friends with in a real life. :)

Thank you for all your sweet comments, I always read every single one of them, even though I was really bad with responding in the past few weeks as I had to study a lot, but I promise to catch up on everything! :) Thank you again! I love you all! :*

And this is my homemade puffy cake that we'll enjoy later. :P

P.S. I passed my last exam today!! WOO HOO!!!!! :D I said I'll add this if I pass. LOL
Best day ever!!!! :))

XOXO

7 things about me. :)

Hello! :D I just got this cool award/tag from Anita of Life.Style.Fun. called "7 things about me". Thank you, Anita! :

1. I don't know how to act around children & I am horrible with these stuff. When all the girls go crazy seeing a little baby I just stand there like an idiot. I want to be a mother someday, though. :)

2. I love foreign languages and I want to learn more and more. I speak English, decent Spanish and Portuguese, that I've actually learned all by myself. I speak Portuguese better than Spanish, actually. Want to learn Italian and French also.

3. I am very interested in spiritual. From Astrology, to Card Divination to Law Of Attraction. It rolls in the family.

4. I love being in the centre of attention and I am quite self-conscious. But not in a mean way. I am not a bad cocky person. I like to make others feel better, I am very positive and content in general and I know I'm good at giving advices, but I also feel like shit sometimes. That's why I can't live without my friends, I need people to support me and make me feel loved. And I hope they know that I love them to death. :)

5. I am obsessed with food. I am a total gourmet maniac. I love mediterranean, Chinese, Mexican etc. The spicier the merrier.

6. Haha, this one is funny. Appearance wise. I have these "broken" pinkie fingers, I don't know why this happens, but it's genetic, my mum has them too. You can see it here. I don't know if it looks hideous to you, but I'm so used to it, so I don't even notice it anymore and I actually don't mind it at all. :D
 

7. When I meet someone new, I don't really know what to talk about. Although, when you get to know me I'm pretty sure I talk TOO much. I love long conversations. I also write waaaaay too much. (Have you ever noticed that? :P)

There you go, seven things. :D Oh, I would just like to say, Anita, sorry if some of them seem so similar to your list, I've noticed that (I mentioned food & spirituality too) and it wasn't my intention to copy or anything, but I guess we think alike in some ways, so I also had to include those. :)

P.S. I wrote a lot, but I thought it was too much. :/ I shortened it up to sentences.

I give this award to anyone that will read this post, feel free to do it and I would love to read yours too!! :)

And here are some pics, my casual outfit of the day, that I wore when I went to my grandmother's house for lunch. :) Very simple, really. Can't wait to go shopping soon, at least I hope so. :/ See ya!

Me in the garden, taking my pictures, my grandma telling me that the neighboors will see me :| (you know, because it really isn't a normal thing to do) and my lunch. :P

I am wearing: New Yorker DIYed cardigan, H&M tank top, Tally Weijl harem jeans, H&M leopard flats, H&M sunglasses and rings.

xoxo :)

Everything blooms in spring.

Today I just can't seem to write anything that I would like, I'm not inspired, so I'll just mention a few things that I wanted to say in a LIST:

-Obviously, it's the first day of spring. So, hoorah to that! :)

-Sun moved into the sign of Aries - which is my sign. :) Cool.

-That also means that my birthday is coming soon - next month. :D

-It will get warmer now and I will be able to wear my spring/summer clothes again soon, most importantly, with no coats on. :) 

-Even though my favourite nail polish is the red one, I suddenly have an urge for brighter colours, so now my nails are yellow. :D

-I want to start working out, the pause has been too long. :D I miss it & the lovely weather is making me want to do it even more, I feel so full of energy when the sun is shining (will try to stick to it even if it will rain :) ).

OK and today I'll just post some random pics of mine and even though I prefer posting outfits, today I didn't go anywhere, so I want to show you some pieces that I saw on Tally Weijl's website, I believe it is the new collection. I don't like everything that they have, but I always find some really cool pieces in their store that would suit me. :) Cheap also. More or less.

Cabinets that I saw in some shop in Italy a few days ago. I love this style, I want something like that for my room! :)

My nails. :D Sunshine inspired!

I wanted to buy a cross necklace for soooo long and then my mum tells me she has one from the eighties. :D COOLNESS!

 

 I like these things. :) But I would really really like to have that hat, at least that. :D

See you! Kisses! :*

Lady Fucking Gaga.

Today I just have to dedicate this post to this amazing performer that I visited her concert just a few days ago: yes, it's Lady Gaga! OK first of all I must say this. I was her fan before, but after this spectacle I love her even more!! There is no words to describe this event, her, the singing, the dancing, all the people performing with her, the effects, the lights, the scenes in the background, the intros, the opening act called Semi Precious Weapons <3, everything was just too much!!! It was the best show I've ever seen in my life. There was 15.000 people, all kinds of people, from old to young, to children, to couples, gay men, straight men, all kinds of men, glam people, fashion freaks, punks, ravers, pin ups, just watching those people I couldn't believe how many different kinds of people love her and it felt so damn good, it was such a proof that she's so much more than just "a pop star with audience of 12-18 aged girls"!! Also I must mention that the fashion seen before and after the concert on those random people was just too much!! LOVED IT!

Back to Gaga. The concert started at 8pm, people could start entering at 6:30, we were really early, just so we could get to the front rows and we had such luck, we were in about fourth row for the whole concert! 

The concert started with the opening act, which was a glam rock band called Semi Precious Weapons, the singer said they are very good friends of Lady Gaga & she performed with them often before she got famous and now she brings them with her on the tour. I must say, the band was fucking awesome!!!! Please if you have a minute, go to YouTube and search them out, they are really something!! The singer was really hot in his golden heels :P he was intentionally cocky and very funny and he kept on saying: scream for LADY FUCKING GAGA!!!! :D And may I tell you, the concert was Friday night, now it's Tuesday and my voice is still gone, but I don't mind AT ALL!!!

After the band we waited a bit more & there she was. I can't describe the emotion, it was so amazing!!!! I couldn't believe that I can see her on the stage!! I was in a state of shock for about 5 minutes, but then I just started singing along and I got into this amazing flow and the show was a FUCKING BLAST!!! People, I'm telling you, this free bitch is one hell of a LADY!!! The whole performance left me SPEECHLESS!!! In the end everyone was just saying that they've never seen anything like it and that everyone should see this. I'll never forget this concert and when she comes to Europe again, I'm definitely going!! She is a fucking queen, so long live Lady Gaga, The Mother Monster!!! <3

Here are the photos I managed to snap at the concert, though the quality is really, like really bad, because they said that cameras are not allowed, even though in the end, half of the people had them. O.o I was really furious, but I did record and take photos with my phone anyway, so here are some pics, I'm really sorry you can't see her properly, but I'm still happy I own them! At least I have some memories of what a fucking great concert it was!! :))) 

Me and my friend on our way to Ljubljana. :)

Almost there at Tivoli!! :)

The Monster Ball ticket. :)

Semi Precious Weapons header. :) Sorry, I had pics of them too, but then I deleted everything to record Lady Gaga! :)

The first scene! That fencing was made out of giant heroin needless! Provocative? Indeed. :P

The Queen!

Beautiful Gaga in one of the videos that played on that giant curtain while they changed the scene.

Playing "Speechless" on a burning piano! :D

This giant screen thing came down in between...

...so Lady Gaga...

...could put on a dress in which she flew above the stage!

Lady Swan :)

Put your FUCKING PAWS UP!!!

Sorry, these pics are poor, but I loved them!

Right in front of us!!! O.O

The burning statue of Jesus, during Alejandro! She said "my friend loves boys and girls, he loves everyone, he's just like Jesus"! :)

God, how I love her! :) <3

One of the fetish masks on the video, some were really scary, reminded me of Slipknot.

Great dancing! The dancers were amazing!

Nice booty! :P

 

Gaga on the skyscraper.

Gagazilla!

The fame monsteeeeeeeer!!!!!

Lady Gaga is scared!

Rhoaaaaaaaaarrrr!!! The Fame Monster was trying to eat Gaga while singing Paparazzi.

The last song, Bad Romance. Amazing performance! :)

A group bow at the end. :)

So, this is it! :) Sorry for a whole lotta swearing today xD but believe me, it was a part of the show and it's necessary for me to put it in the post too, cause everything was just too fucking AWESOME!

And in the next post I'll post some videos too!! :))

I hope you'll enjoy reading it!! <3